Am I going to Grumble? Or Trust?
When I go back and count, I only posted 13 days out of the 31! Looks like I just got my numbers turned around.
We were asked to write a recap post. Did I learn anything as I wrote? Will it reshape me in any way?
And thankfully, they invited everyone to recap, even if we did not complete 31 days.
So, did I learn anything? Well, yes, I did.
On writing, I learned that if I focus and bring ALL that I know, and ALL that I want to write about, down into something very specific, like grumbling or trusting, writing comes easier. There were days in September when I wanted to write, and I had all kinds of things dancing in my head, but nothing specific. Therefore, no words ever made it to paper: I wrote nothing during the month of September versus 13 posts in October.
Focus is key.
I also learned that even with a challenge before me to write 31 days, sometimes life gets in the way. And life, living it, still trumps writing about it. There were a few days when I clicked that “publish” button at 11:59 pm, but typically on those kind of days, life won out as did sleep. And I’m ok with that.
Living trumps writing.
I don’t write if I don’t take the time. There will always be 24 hours in any day. No more. No less. I am a task-oriented person. I work from a to-do list. Writing can no longer just be an add-on — if I have time. There will never be any left-over hours. If I want to write, then “write” must be on the to-do list. It gets done if it’s on the list. Because that’s how I roll.
Take the time to write. Steal it. It’s ok.
So those were the easy lessons.
I chose 31 Days of JOY — will I grumble or will I trust? Life lessons that require attitude and perspective shifts are harder to learn. And can I just say, they hurt more.
On grumbling, I learned that murmuring and complaining are often my default settings. Ouch. (No one wants to know that about themselves.) But knowledge is power, and several times last month when I wanted to complain, grumble, or gossip about something, I stopped myself.
Often that’s as far as I went; I just reined in my thoughts. I didn’t grumble. Done.
It’s one step to not complain, but it’s a giant leap to praise God and trust Him for whatever comes your way.
Whatever comes your way.
Was I going to just not grumble? Or was I going to trust?
On trusting, I learned that I could not savor trust and grumble in the same mouthful. My trust required remembering God’s faithfulness to me in the past. My trust reminded me that God works ALL things out for my good.
ALL things. Even “this”? Even “that”?
Yes, ALL things.
Then, and only then, could my trust bring praise to my lips. “Thank you, Lord, for what you are doing in this situation. I trust you.”
Trust doesn’t grumble, trust praises God.
I will focus and take time to write. I will try not to grumble (too often). I will trust God by remembering His faithfulness and praising Him for what He is doing in my life.
“And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28
It was a good challenge, and I’m glad I participated. Did I do it perfectly? No, I did not. But it’s like any kind of exercise — practice makes perfect.
“The secret of becoming a writer is to write, write and keep on writing.”
Just keep typing… just keep typing…